I'm so damn bloody happy now.

Tuition was horrible. I hate the new female teacher. :(

Alright, so there's this guy.... hehhhhhh. shhhh. :) I'm a happy person okay. I'm trying not to make it sound sarcastic. I'm not lying. :):):)

might as well take a gun and put it to his head.

i wanna kill myself. seriously.

wanted to meet that japanese idiot. at first he say can. then say cannot then say can. wtf. fuck lah. i meeting wanting like now. so i have to leave like now. okay, bye. then tuition all. ugh. really. fml. hate this. :(

sad. todays gonna be a sad day. sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad. :'( was playing msn games with jeston awhile. then suddenly felt like shit. i mean. felt shittier than usual. damn my life. :'( there's tuition later on. and i so wanna skip it. sigh. my life... i miss wanting. i miss people. i want my normal life back. fuck this o levels.

I LOVE YOU. and, miss you. :(

I'm going to sleep now. yea, like wtf. k bye. :'(

Meowth

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damn, this picture reminded me.

the hand infront means "I protect you."

with every step, we climb another mountain.

My mum cheered me up a bit with the durians that my uncle bought. Not bad.

Okay, back to solitude now. goodbye.

I am so damn sad now.

I don't know why. I'm sad. I guess I know but I don't wanna admit it. Or maybe I'm just too tired. Right. I think I'm tired of pretending. Really. I hate this. I hate losing people. Friends or what. Screw my life. And everything.

Caught haunted changi today with Amanda, Subra and Cecilia. Coolio. If the storyline was real, I may have really loved that movie. But seems that many people are saying that its fake? And that the guy didn't die and stuff. Aw well.

Ended up not studying cause I just couldn't concentrate and stuff. I don't know. I'm just sad. Aw well. You should have seen the look on my face when she saw right through me. How I pretend and stuff. Damn. Okay. I'm so tired of everything. I'm probably gonna go to sleep now. Nothing much for me to do anyway.

Zombieland.

LOL. so was that heart for me or for Evan Almighty? Heh. I know you still read my blog okay. I love you. ;) K, I'm gonna go off the comp now. Will go use itouch a bit more cause tonights my last night with it. :( awwww. Hahahaha. Can't wait for the study session tml at mac with the peoples. Alright. Byebyebyebyebyebyebye~~

曾经孤单加上孤单是爱火

不如就分手? ;(

as the music fades.

放我一个人生活.

next week is going to be one busy week. holidays. right.

remedials on the first three days. fab.

(ohyea, those are my new spects.)

HOME ALONE.

like, what the heck. i want a sibling. i hate this.

I feel like screaming it out here.

I love [insert your name REALLY REALLY big (including chinese name)].

one and only. get it? don't try to psycho me to fall in love with him. -.-

do you think about me?

XOXOXOXOXOXO

less than three. same boat. tears. runescape. somersaults. web cam guy. what about now. butterfly fly away. stuck in my heart. midnight train going anywhere. far away. songs. girlfriend. act cute pose. xmm. lap dig ear dig nose @ kopitiam. Pc show. open. 857. sms. shy. birthday boy. Jelapang. sticky. birthday bash. shirt. bejeweled. cafe world. facebook. password. FAT. 29th. don't cheat on me. 30th. 3 am. taxi ride. hugs. kisses. love. you. me. us.

When the rain pours.

SCHOOL HOLIDAYS = NO SCHOOL HOLIDAYS.

and can you tell me why you keep appearing on her status comments? :( I know its ridiculous, but I just can't help but feel jealous. Ah, you should get what I mean, but whatever. you're not mine, I have no rights to complain. damn.

This is interesting.

Answer the following questions with the first thought that comes to mind.

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. With who?
2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it?
3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house, how big is it?
5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
6. You enter the house. You walk in to the dining room and see a table. What’s on AND around it?
7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
8. What do you do with the cup?

ANSWERS:

1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important person in your life.
2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of the problems in your life.
3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.
4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to solve your problems.
5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome atall times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You’d prefer people not drop by unannounced.
6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.
7. The durability of the material with the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.
8. Your disposition of the cup is representative of your attitude.

Seems like I'm a happy person with a big ambition to solve the problems in my life. Oh, and I have an open personality. And my cup was a teacup. And I did nothing to it. I did nothing to the animal that I saw (dog) as well.

The truth is hiding in your eyes.

and its hanging on your tongue.

just boiling in my blood.

(recycled pictures)

THERE ARE LOTS OF HAWTT ANGMOHS IN TOWN TODAY. I BET KHW IS JEALOUS NOW.

Okay, so I'm back from city hall. Got my specs. I guess they look normal? Heh. Only gonna wear them during lessons and stuff. Gotta get used to the degree. I feel damn giddy when I have them on. Feels like the floor is floating. O: I need to cut my fringe. It keeps poking into my eyes and it hurts like hell. :(

Studying on monday with Cecilia, Amanda and Koji at mac on monday! After remedials. Woohooooo~

Lets get gone.

Previous post was updated via itouch. How cool is that? Hehhh. Anyway, I just woke up AGAIN. Fell back asleep at 11am. Looool. Alright. I have to meet my mum at bras basah to collect my spects. Omgomgomg!!! ;);) excited as hellllll.

Ugh, I need to go eat now 1st. (wanted to post pictures, but I have no time.)

- live with no regrets then. I got a lot of debts. damn. (LOL)

You are stuck in my heart.

I went to sleep at 9pm and I woke up at 2am. Now I can't get back to sleep. This is awesome. :/ I texted him for awhile then he went to sleep already. Sigh. I missed you so much, then I remembered, I'm not supposed to. ;(

I love you baby, don't be sad anymore. Cause whatever road you take or choose, I'll still love you. I don't know how not to. No matter how long we're apart, I won't stop loving you. Cause it's your absence that makes me value your presence.

- less than three.

imperfect.

going offline.

- lt3, <3

watch me burn.

bleeding hawt. ♥

I can't feel you there.

My expected grade for today's MT prelim paper is F9. Heh. I slept throughout P1. Did only 1 paragraph of the letter writing. And thats like the intro only. And, I didn't do compo. :/ for P2, I anyhow write numbers. And I only did 1 question from the open ended questions. Yay, stef you rock. I slept a lot today. Heh.

I didn't intend to sleep la, ofcause. But I just can't concentrate on the freaking paper you know. A lot of thoughts in my head. And Linkin Park's Numb was playing in my head. Imagine hearing "I've become so numb" over and over again. Makes me numb. O: Its a bit to fall asleep at the hall. Damn bloody hot. I was sweating like crazy. Dislike. If O levels is gonna be as hot as today, I think I sure retain already.

Take the time to read this. Srsly.

LOVE VS. SEX: A teenage girl about 17 had gone to visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared their various experiences of the past year. She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn't afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he was waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story. The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed. The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her. She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her. When the policeman asked him, he answered, "Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her." Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you're never alone. Did you know that 98% of teenagers will not stand up for God? Repost this as Love vs. Sex if you truly believe in God. PS: God is always there in your heart and loves you no matter what and if you stand up for him he will stand up for you. I bet 93% of the people that read this wont repost it. I read this and reposted it. Well I bet you read this note because of the title, didn't you?

won't kill you if you just clicked and looked right? :)

Take one step at a time.

Omg. honestly, I don't know if this is a guy or a girl. Cause the top picture looks like a girl, and the second one  looks like a smoking hot guy. Wooooooo. He's mine.

Another time, another place, will you be mine?

Everything fell into place last night. Now it makes sense. Yet, I just feel damn crappy. I don't want things to end up this way. I really don't want. Can things go my way - for once? I hate this. :( after that less than three. I just couldn't stop the damn tears. Were you crying with me? Looking up at the same sky, feeling like shit, like me? I should have seen it properly earlier. Why am I so stupid? We never did fall out of love with each other. You never did. And I thought I was a second "her". I feel like an idiot. Smile always? I can't smile anymore. I don't know. I feel terrible now. :( what do you want from me? Wtf are you trying to do to me? Cause all you're doing is messing with my mind and killing my heart.

These words can cut right through.

NO PICTURES NOW.

New blog skin. Took me forever to get done properly. I miss the stretched skin already ;( Aw well. I'm chatting with Sean on msn. Yay. There's MT prelim tml!?@#$ I didn't know. ;(;( Tuition just now was horrible. I fell asleep in the class. Stef, what is wrong with you. -.-

- I found a reason to to hold on. Because you still love me.

YOU.

We all are afraid to get hurt, but we all also want to know how it feels to hold hands with that particular someone that we love.. Don’t be so upset, forget the past & start afresh with the one you love. - Wilber Pan

She's the girl that has a few best friends & doesn't need anymore, the girl that laughs the hardest at her own jokes. She's the girl that will hang up on you, but then call you right back & say sorry. She's the girl who will never leave your side when you need her, the girl who will go out of her way to cheer you up. She's the girl who never sleeps without her teddy bear by her side, she's the girl who says she isn't ticklish, but really is. She's the girl who will not give up on you if she really believes in you. She's the girl who believes in loving somebody forever.

poser.

The club can't even handle me right now.

I know I'm kinda weird. But I actually check my email yknow? Heh. No, I don't check them for facebook updates. I check them for other stuff. Like blogshop updates. I'm smart. I used my old email for facebook updates. So I just dumped that email one side. I know. How smart am I eh? Smart enough to flunk my SS and probably my EL P1 as well. Damn.

Just got back Amaths prep paper. 15/80
nice one stef. I don't understand how Jerin got 61/80. -.-

Guess what. I slept at 4.30 this morning.
nice one stef. I had to do some very important stuff.
Strangely I felt bright awake when I woke up.
But slowlyyyy during the EL and SS paper,
I got damn damn tired. Then BAM. I'm asleep. damn.
I screwed the EL paper. I used to be some EL pro. :(
And SS? Don't talk about it. I hate Tan Wei Chung. ;/

Phys tuition later on at 7pm.
Have to replenish my sleep tonight.

HOME ALONE. :(

stomach is hurting now. regret eating mac again. sighhhhh. I think people with braces are coollll. ;)

WHO KNEW?

can't make up your mind mind mind mind mind.

so I was home early today. Couldn't study properly. Ugh. Slept at 5 in the morning and woke up at 1, still feeling a bit in a daze when I woke up. damnnnn. Dragged myself outta bed and prepared then headed to jurong library. guess who we bumped into? -.- hy, xy, and 2 other unknown guys. Had dinner at mac. Phewww~ I think I eat mac will feel fuller than when I eat seoul garden. Weird. I BOUGHT A NEW YAHHHLOOOWW ITOUCH COVER. Omg. Happy. ;);) It'll belong to me until after the 1 week holiday. Woohoo~~ I downloaded new stuff inside alr. Yay. I'm so happy. ;);)

- downside? tml is the start of prelim. Starting off with SS. D-I-E. ;(;(;( have to admit that I ain't prepared.
- tonight's gonna be a late night for me again!!! I hate these tiny little panda eyes. Someone do smt bout this! ;(
- gonna get my spects soon! damn this long wait! I wanna see what it looks like! Yay.
- needa find a revenue for money this eoy. I don't wanna waste my holidays away. (probably retaining tho. sigh)





► where is lt3 when I need him? ;(

that sec two kid is so fucking irritating. she texted me to ask me "you and zx patch?" gosh. what do you think our relationship was? some sort of a game? Like, on and off as and when we like? it isn't. it's over. was long long long ago over alr. then she comes and tell me she and whoever broke up alr and now she got a new boyfriend. god. what do you think this is? some sort of a competition to see who has the most guys? all your other friends may be like that, but I'm not, and I detest people like you. go away & leave me alone. god.

STUDYING AT JURONG LIBRARY. CATCH ME THERE NOWWW! GOODBYE. I NEED TO GO PREPARE. SO MAFAN. ;(

- I had a dream of ted goh zhi xiang. Best dream ever.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WISH I COULD SLEEP RIGHT NOW. THIS SHIT IS KILLING ME SO BADLY. FUCK THIS INSOMNIA. I HATE THIS.

- we can't be tgthr. really can't. you know i love him.

Baby before its too late, what about now?

OH.MY.GOD. guess who just texted me? ;) Mingxuan! Damn, you guys don't know him. He's my primary school friend and we worked together before. JULIA! MINGXUAN TEXTED ME. OMG RIGHT! Okay shit. This is crazy shit. He's weird. He texted me say he's sorry all. I don't even know what he did wrong. :/ weirdo.

I have like 2 dollars to survive on for the week! ;(;( I my lunch + dinner and seoul garden. Yay. It was super awesome. We ate really really really slowly. Cause it was buffet! We could have all we liked. It was damn expensive though. But the icecream tasted fab. Hmmm. Headed to safra area to play swings awhile then went to batok and then I went home on the 2nd last train. Phewwww~

Itouch will be mine tomorrow.

sigh.